Burdened- Weary-Heavy

Sometimes life just throws too much at you all at once... I've been feeling very weary and heavy for quite sometime. Where will my help come from?...my help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth. Sometimes that is hard to live and walk in when your heart is just so heavy. And just when you think your heart couldn't stand much more... one more situation get's dumped in your lap... and ouch... your bent over and can't hardly stand anymore.

Our eldest kitty is sick...and dying. I've had him for about 13 years and he's been through a lot with me. I'm heartbroken at the decision I know I'll have to make eventually..... I cry when I look at his small skinny frame.. my heart breaks when he comes up in bed at night to snuggle with us... and I know there won't be many more times for that. Is it ok to pray for my kitty? Does God want to hear those prayers? He created everything... he must care about my Romeo too?

It's been a long hard winter for us at the Condon household. Darren started with the town of Fort Fairfield Public Works dept. last fall and this was his rookie year of plowing... well, need I say more. He has been pretty absent this winter and I've missed him. That lack of time together has been rough.

I have been feeling really uncomfortable in my own skin lately... not sure what that's all about, but it's not a good feeling....

Work is extra busy and I've got some side projects that are just keeping me really stressed out and busy. My weeks just seem to get more and more eaten up with respondsibilites and I feel more and more tired and pulled in a million different directions... I try to make good use of my time and to give the ones I love my time and attention...my love and affection... and I just seem to be failing at that lately. Between work, church,classes, home, friends and family... I just don't have the time I need to give everything my undivided attention! I find myself in the midst of some extra relationship burdens and I just feel yucky! All of this might seem small to other peoples burdens, but this is my world right now and it's heavy.

Joy

Psalm 69: 30-32 Then I will praise God's name with singing, and I will honor him with thanksgiving. For this will please the Lord more than sacrificing an ox or presenting a bull with its horns and hooves. The humble will see their God at work and be glad. Let all who seek God's help live in joy.

That is what I aspire to do... Seek Gods' will... praise God's name with singing and honor Him with thanksgiving... and see His work and be glad and live in joy. Even in the tough times... even when the enemy is attacking me from all sides... I choose to continue to press on and claim my victory in Christ.

Blessed beyond Measure

Today is my first day back from vacation... And to be back to my desk...back with my co-workers...out of the house... and feeling flu free is awesome!!!! I am so blessed to have a job I love... a boss that is amazing ...and co-workers that cover for me in my absence and are genuinely happy to have me come back..... I really feel like I need to recognize the Lord's hand in my position in life...and thank Him for everything I have.....

Keeping Meghan and Olivia while Tania and Dana were vacationing in Hawaii, was just a wonderful gift... Uncle Darren and I really loved the week with our girls.... even through all the flu -yuck...the teething ouchies... being cooped up in the house trying to regain strength and get some rest... Today I feel like a very blessed Auntie to have been given the opportunity to try on my "Mommy Shoes" and have the good, bad and the ugly to experience.... I am so lucky to have a sister and brother- in -law that trust Darren and I with their precious gifts ...

He is Risen!

Today...Easter Sunday.... as the sun shines and the wind continues to blow...I thank God for sending His son to die on a lowly Roman cross to save my sorry self from an eternity apart from the presence of the King... What an awesome gift we have. I pray for the strength and courage to spread the good news to all who will listen.

Happy Easter!!! Happy Resurrection!

Van of Cacklin' Hen's

I had the most wonderful opportunity yesterday to go to Bangor for the day with a van full of sisters... it was so much fun!!!! It was a day full of coffee...food...shopping..fellowship...the sweet sound of laughter... hugs... and great memories!! I am blessed beyond measure to have so many awesome friends that are like family to me... and to get away for the day with just a few of those friends was a rare opportunity and a delightful treat... God just pourded out his love on me once again... I was very torn if I should go... I'm a home body by nature..and I enjoy my sunday's with Darren very much, and find them difficult to give up...we get so busy that time is precious to us...... I also didn't have extra money for shopping... but in the light of a new sunny Monday morning...I'm so glad I went... So..to those few sisters that had the opportunity to go yesterday in our 'Van of Cacklin' Hen's" (as Dawn's husband so loveling called us) ...Thank You so much for your friendship...I love you all very much!!!!

New Adventure

Last night I started on a new journey...

I'll be co-leading a Disciple Maker Group with a dear friend of mine... the group is a small selection of ladies... a great variety of ages... different places in our walks with the Lord.. different backgrounds...it's amazing to see God knit something together before your very eyes.... Our first class was amazing. Everyone brings a little something special to the group that God knew we needed... the ladies were sharing, giving testimony, asking questions and being honest and real. Everyone is excited to dig in and study God's Word... I just can't wait to see what is to come for this group.... I am feeling so lucky and blessed to have been given this opportunity and just can't wait to learn from this group of sisters!

Matthew 28: 19&20 "Therefore, go and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit. Teach these new disciples to obey all the commands I have given you. And be sure of this: I am with you always, even to the end of the age."

Tears of Joy

The other day I was puttering around the house... just cleaning and doing laundry. The house was alive with worship music and I was home alone. I ended up dusting some framed photo's in the living room and after just touching a few photos, I found tears on my face. The photo's I had touched were of my 'kids'... Now, for those of you that might not know this little bit of information..Darren and I have not been able to have children...so the 'kids' I'm referring to are our nieces and nephews...and some other children adopted into this group by virtue of love... well.. I believe in that little ordinary moment of cleaning my living room, the Lord reminded me of the blessings in my life... Meghan, Riley, Olivia, Justin, Noah, Katie Mae, Tyler, Isaac, Dolly, Katie, Christopher... just to name a few..(there are SO many more)....My goodness...I am surrounded by children that I love and hold dear..... May I never feel like I'm missing out... May I always praise Him for what I DO have. May I always feel that same gratefullness toward my Father.