No Accident

I have had many times in my life when I was so low and spirialing downward that I felt like I was a mistake..my life was a mistake..... that God somehow 'screwed up'... don't we all have that moment in life... I'm just playing on the computer and drinking coffee in the quiet of the morning....I look over and my calendar reminded me that I'm not an accident... even if my parents didn't plan me... God did.

Psalm 139:15 (The Message)
You know me inside and out...how I was sculpted from nothing into something.

Thank You Lord for giving me breath...

Music

I don't listen to much secular music anymore... just a personal choice I've made...and when I do listen to it...it's usually the Kidz Music CD in my car that belongs to my niece Meghan...or the country station...( I know...I know)... Anyway...I was listening to the country station this morning as I was getting ready for work..and this song came on that had some reference to God... I didn't sing along...I didn't hum along.....What happened all during that song was a thought.... that the lyrics didn't line up with the truth... How funny is it that a song that had it all wrong... spoke to me this morning...

Mary Heart/Martha World

I am reading a book by Joanna Weaver called "Having a Mary Heart in a Martha World"... I am just a few short pages into this book... I already feel a sence of relief just from knowing I'm not alone in my all too frequent 'Marta"-likeness... I let life and the business of my day's get me down...and take my focus off doing things out of a right heart attitude...sometimes I'm a bit of a control freak...(yes, I admit it!!) and that can create a wrong heart attitude that I don't find attractive in myself... (and I'm sure the Lord isn't too pleased either!!!) I let my attention get shifted off the Lord and His will for me... off time with the Lord...quiet time in the Word...and onto my 'to do' lists...that mutiply quickly....... Distracted...Disobedient...Discouraged... That is what she calls the Three D's... I find myself in that attitude sometimes and it's easy to be in that place...I pray through reading this book, I can overcome that Martha like heart attitude and focus on being a Mary...focused on the Lord and his Word... Focus on not allowing the enemy to use the Three D's to create a hole that I sink into... A self-pity party is so easy to slip into...and I am victim to that all too often... I am praying this book will shed some light into overcoming this Marth-likeness.. and help me strive to be a Mary...or more like Mary...

anyone ever feel this way???

My Friend Kelly

I have this wonderful..sweet...loving...funny...beautiful...awesome friend Kelly... Some of you might know her... Kelly Tuttle... She has her own blog...but doesn't think anyone would read it...She thinks it's a waste of time... I think she's got a wonderful heart with wonderful things to share... interesting and heartfelt stories... I would like to encourage her to share her life and heart with her friends and sisters....

www.ktuttle.blogspot.com

Family Photo's & Year Books!!!

Last night Darren and I were over to his parents house with about 13 of his family memebers...(He's got a LARGE family)... Out came the year books and old Family Photo Albums... I remember back when we were dating or first married and those would come out..I would think, "UGH, not again!!"... But this time it was different... I was focused on listening to Darren tell the old stories...(that I have heard before!)... and focused on listening to Darren's Mom point out who everyone was in almost every photo... Showing me her year book & awards... terribly old black and white photo's of people that not even Darren knew... There was joy on Darren's mothers face that I noticed...and joy on Darren's face as he looked through those old memories and shared his version of each 'story'... I thank God for helping me look past my own selfish ways to recognize the joy and sweetness of that moment...and how special it was that, once again, they wanted to share those memories with me. I thank God for the loving family I've been blessed to be a part of... And I thank God for my husbands heart...so child-like and sweet...

Weight Watchers/ Day 2

Day two arrives and I'm still hanging in there... I can do this!!!

New Year Wishes

What an amazing year this has been.. reflecting back over 2007 it's been full of laughter, tears, grief, fear, joy, praise, healing, restoration, love, blessings, forgiveness (after overcoming unforgiveness)... and a multitude of other things equally as wonderful... I must say that I am looking forward to what the Lord has instore for me in 2008... everyday is new and a mystery.. a true gift from our gracious Father in heaven!!! For 2008 I wish peace, prosperity, healing, growth, love, laughter, hugs, kisses, joy, restoration, forgiveness and a abundance of blessings from the Lord upon you .... we will encounter pain, sorrow, grief, struggles, sin, anger...true troubled times... I pray that in the midst of these times, the Lord is ever present in our minds and hearts.....I pray in those time we can rise up and praise Him still! I pray that we enter every day with a renewed sence of thanksgiving for the air we breathe and the lives we have. I love you all very much and thank God for the gift of your friendship and sistership... Happy New Year Sisters!